Tuesday, January 13, 2015

There's a name for this???

Nail Biting

Licking your lips

Chewing gum

or any mouth noise

MAKES ME MENTAL

It feels likes a fork on a plate. Sometimes at school I want to run out of the classroom but I can't.

So I have to suck it up.

I am screaming in my head and I want to cry.

It makes me so stressed I can't concentrate because thats all I can hear.

I want to say.

"Do you really have to bite your nails in class???" "Do you really have to chew gum SO LOUD???"

I feel so out of control, I want to scream at the person "ARE YOU KIDDING ME???"

I know they are not doing it on purpose and I don't know how it doesn't bother anyone else.

Once I leave or the noise stops, I still feel irritated. It sometimes takes a long time to calm down.

People don't know I feel this way. I try to hide it but it's hard.

Sometimes I block my ears or listen to music on my phone.

I want to move my seat in class but I don't want anyone to ask me why.

Because what would I say??

I wish there was a medicine  I could take to stop it.  It's so annoying,  I have a headache just thinking about it!!

I wish I could get rid of it.

My mom says there's a name for it.

It's called Misophonia.
Under the blanket in the car, blocking out the sound.